Thursday, March 13, 2008

Monday, March 10, 2008

These days, I can't help but feel that God is hiding himself from me.

Or is it I who didn't seek?

Friday, March 07, 2008

The relatives around me are making me feel uneasy.

Saturday, March 01, 2008

My stomach is throwing tantrums right now and I think it was induced by the 'Mee Sua' I had earlier on. Maybe you can't eat apple after you eat Mee Sua. Right now I'm drinking Milo hoping that it will make me feel better but instinct tells me that it's going to make it worse. Either way, this won't be the last you see or hear of me.

L: Change the World

Yesterday Sis had an impetuous urge to watch 'L: Change the World' and I obliged. The movie wasn't as good as it could be. Unnecessary gore and details, together with a weak plot made this a very very mediocore movie. I would say that it is rubbish if there's no L. If this movie is worth 3 stars, I bet 2.5 stars would be for Ken'ichi Matsuyama (L) and the 0.5 stars would go to the hot pink 'Angel Crepe' caravan.

I mean L, the soul of the Death Note series, has so much potential to film a MUCH MUCH better movie than this. On the whole, I am disappointed with 'L: Change the World' but it's worth the watch if you are fascinated with L (like I am). I still like the actual Death Note series better, the 2 guys battling their wits to see who gets the final victory...

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

"I am tired of taking pills to make me feel better."

"Were you afriad to tell your friends you were dating a fat girl?"

"Four years ago, when I was 12, my dad committed suicide. Everytime I yell at my mum, I am afraid I will cause her to do the same."

"One time, I was taking a bath, and I accidentally shit in the tub."

"This drink that is slowly killing me is the only think keeping me from killing myself."

"I make everyone believe that I like to be different, but really I just don't know how to fit in."

"I am a firefighter. I am afraid that the day might come when I'm not as brave as I'm supposed to be."

"I have been planning my husband's funeral for 24 years."

-adapted from PostSecret.com

Anonymous confessions of one's deepest secret.

Ain't I surprised to find bits and pieces of myself in people whom I don't know?

Yes, I am.

Sunday, February 17, 2008

This is the Study Week and MBIO exam is on Friday.

Yet I have never felt as relaxed as it is now throughout the whole semester. The whole semester had been crazy, busy, emotion-rippling and tiring. I lost counts of the number of times I thought I couldn't finish assignments after assignments. The assignments had been like a wave, pushing you along with it until you reach the deadline. Sometimes, I'm amazed and impressed with my own ability to hold it out for four months, while other times I winced at the tottering pile of work and ridiculous deadlines to be met.

Obviously in my opinion, this is the toughest semester ever.

My bedtime has changed to 12 midnight, my sleep have been plagued with dreams every night and project work has taught me more humanity than I ever wanted to learn.

Perhaps a few years later, I would look back at this post and chuckle at how naive I was when I wrote it. Perhaps something worse lies in head of me when I enter university that will make this semester look like a harmless little lamb. But I guess I won't brood over it so much at this point in time.

This semester has finally become a chapter of history. It ended pretty well. It could have ended perfectly if I wasn't reprimanded by Mdm D. for frankly forgetting that I was in her lecture when I sms-ed right before her face. Well, she never fancies me anyway. In fact, I guess no teacher will like a student like me for arguing with them on a certain topic until they were speechless. But hello, I paid my school fees~

Okay, that's my fate as a student.

So, to sum it up, the semester had taught me the very essence about deadlines and time.

"Time will always expand when the deadline draws near."

Don't understand? Go figure.

Anyway, I reckoned that I deserved a two-day break before I start my MBIO revision. This is the only way I can compensate for my loss during the 4 months. Hahaha...

I'm just doing myself some justice. Lol.

Thursday, February 14, 2008

It's Valentine's Day today and I'm so flattered that I've got two dates in total. My first date with AMIC lasted 5 hours and my second date with MCT will be starting as long as my heart tells me to. I bet the second date will last beyond midnight. Well, the point here is, I fancy none of them. When morning arrive, I will kick them out of my mind.

Anyway, because V Day was just around the corner, the main theme for I-weekly this week was LOVE. Like duh... There's this little table where the reporters listed how the idea of love had evolved through the ages. I think its interesting but sadly, I think its true also. Let me summarise the evolutionary theory...

Love at First Sight
In the older days, your other half is most probably introduced by your aunties or matchmakers. Or your other half is actually your childhood sweetheart. Now, in the modern days, you meet your boy/girlfriends through online chats, at the pubs or in the office.

Gifts, Anybody?
In the past, gifts showered on girls by their boyfriends are love letters (not the edible type), soft toys and roses. Now? LV, Cartier, Tiffany, Gucci etc.

Out at Dates
Couples in the past spend their date walking, hand in hand, along a moonlit shore, watching movies etc (I think this is sweet!). As for modern couples, they go drinking in pubs, Karaoke-ing and then off to the hotel room~

Communication Skills
Couples in the past communicate via letters, slips of paper or a love song. Couplesnowadays communicate via msn, sms, email, blog, facebook...

Duration of the Relationship
Past: 5 years, 10 years, a lifetime (wow)
Now: A night, 3 months, 1 year

So? True or False, you decide.

Actually there are two more parts which I have difficulty translating. The two parts are sweet (for the olden days) and incredibly funny (for the modern days).

Anyway, I think its very cool if the first lover you have, is the person you love the most and at the same time, is the person who will spend a lifetime with you. You know, no beating around the bush, like you're lucky enough to win TOTO on the first buy. So rare yet beautiful.

That time I saw this old couple, well into their nineties I guess, on the way home. The granny, who had difficulty in walking, held onto the elbow of the grandpa. The grandpa deliberately slowed down his pace to that of his wife, so that they could walk together. Neither of them talked, but the silence spoke volumes. The love was there, silent but unbreakable.

Isn't this better than public display of affections by young couples nowadays? Isn't this more promising that the raucous declaration of love and promises?

In my context, that's how I think love should be - silent, strong and eternal. It's really hard to come by and even if this kind of love really comes, most people are too caught up with their lives to notice it. And then, it is gone by the time you realise it.

As for me, I'll wait. =)

Before I go, I present one of the greatest BIBLE verse.


BYE BYE!