Thursday, January 25, 2007

Saggitarius Teens

Women: This is a young woman you can always count on, and most of the times, she is fun to be with. The Sagittarius girl never lacks company; she is bubbling with energy and ready to explore any thing. She certainly has the gift of the gab but her tendency to blurt out whatever's on her mind can land her in a mess. People around won't understand that she is simply being honest. If she finds something interesting she will simply go for it. She is not the kind to spend long hours in front of the mirror and happily shares her wardrobe with other girls. The young Sagittarius will excel at school and is likely to travel to another country for higher studies.

Words highlighted in yellow is what I think is true about me.
Words highlighted in orange is what I hope will happen to me.

Great, after blogging, I'm back to my HPI notes again.

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

Shit.

I think I'm being very mean nowadays.

Next time, I will be MORE quiet than I usually am.

I'm going to get rid of this budding meanness.

And I'm going to stay cool.

Sorry to those who had been hurt by those mean stuff I had said.

I don't wanna be this blunt/straightfoward anymore.

Luckily I start realising this before anyone tell me.

I'll be a better person than I am presently.

Watch out.

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Whew~ It's been ages since I had blogged. Recently, I had lost the urge to blog due to, firstly, those dull happenings in my life and secondly, the time I had devoted to thinking is way too much to allow me to blog. I may not seem like it but I do think, every second when I'm awake and occasionally, when I'm asleep.

I think of stuff that are nonsensical and many 'what-ifs'. I imagine and make up stuff in my mind and you may be the 'lead' of the scenario I had conjured in my brain. That's why, sometimes I laugh or smiled sheepishly out of a sudden, especially when I'm left to my own devices. Somehow, this lightened my mood.

On a heavier note, there are still times where I think of stuff that makes me depressed. Things that make my heart twinge, cringe and ache for no apparent reason. But well, all this emotions I am feeling makes me human.

And now... about school.

School, in my definition, is an avalanche of quizzes that drown most students. I'm glad that I'm staying afloat despite my weight (hahaha.) and I'm propeling forward. The other day I just talked to my mum about school and somehow it motivated me to work hard and not falter. I made this pact to myself, that I'm not going to make any serious falters that will disappoint anyone that had pinned their hopes on me.

Know why I made this pact? Because this is the only thing I can do best at for my family. I want my family to feel proud for me when I graduate from TP. I want them to feel proud despite those financial difficulties they are facing, in which the only thing I could help was not to take anymore allowance. I literally swelled with pride when my sis told me that she is proud of me whenever she mention me to her friends.

That is why I think I ought to be happy, even though my parents do not shower me with luxury like other parents do on their own children, even though my parents are not so financially able as most of my friends' parents. I should be happy.

Besides, I have God in my life. So why should I fear?

I think God is fair. Even though He doesn't bless me with riches since birth, He gave me a commendable brain and a good family. So great huh? If I'm rich since young, I'll be a spoilt brat, whining like a princess everyday if something little goes wrong.

But I think, like my friends say, I am too emotionally strong for my own good. Hahaha~ Yeah right but I don't think I care.

That's just me.

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

What's the hardest thing to do?

To smile and pretend that you're all right although deep down you're feeling like shit.

To be strong for others when in fact, you're the one who's losing all the strength.

To walk away and leave, even though you like him but circumstances forced you to deny everything.

*DELETED*

Another thing is the change that's taking place in school. It's slow but there and I don't think I appreciate this change. I'm trying very hard to be neutral about certain things but sometimes, I just can't. Maybe this change is good but I'm withering.

And above everything else, I've my committments. I've to stay at the top of my game.

Sunday, January 07, 2007

I had a wonderful time with my secondary school friends yesterday! It was a long outing but when it was time to say goodbye, we were reluctant to see one another go because we know, it would be long before the three of us could meet again. Till then, our lifes will be packed with some other nonsensical stuff that will be keeping our time full.

They had changed ever since we graduated from Dunman. They had changed yet at the same time, they retained the personality that allowed us to click so well in the first place. I guess you never appreciate a person's good points unless you are apart from them for a long period of time. I know that somehow, I had changed too, just that their changes are more significant than my.

One had changed into a demure girl while the other is becoming more and more optimistic. Well, I'm happy for them. Although it wasn't spoken off, the three of us are trying to rise above the challenges that life had thrown at us, be it the ridiculous project deadlines, the suffocating JC life or the neverending amount of science notes to digest. And we were racing towards our own dreams, with a purpose.

The time spent with them is only a time they could give. We could tell out sarcastic jokes without having to fear that we would trigger each other's anger. That's the point of friends isn't it? Knowing each other so well that you know where is the line so that you won't step over it. I regretted not cherishing the time we had spent back in school.

Just yesterday, we were reminiscing about the days we slogged our guts out for DnT, struggling to meet the standards of Mr. Lee and some other teachers. Then as a method of relaxing, we would tease each other about the artefact done so far, especially Huiying's "Esplanade Toilet: Go at Your Own Risk." That got us laughing like mad.

And then we have to endure the smelly acrylic paint and the long hours trapped in the workshop. Occasionally, Mr. Lee would fly into a rage scolding us for whatever we had done. Also, we would complain about how he was helping student A more than he should be helping us. Lastly, it was the crazy pia-ing for the folio.

Hahaha... Those times were tiring but time well-spent. I don't have many friends during my secondary school life but seriously, having them is enough. I had said this many times and I'll say it again: I don't need the whole world as my friend, a few true friends would suffice. I think God had fulfilled this dream of mine even though with me not being very sociable and a tad sarcastic.

For the first time yesterday, we even took the neoprints. The result was absolutely disastrous with us fumbling with the decorating pen but all in all, it was fun. We reckoned that next time we take, the result will be better. The way Huiying and I kept comparing our handphones was funny too. She bought her W810i for like $580 but I bought my W850i for only $99. Haha...so it was funny.

It's worth it to go to Dunman just to meet people like them.

And now, I've found enough strength to face the problems of tomorrow, literally.

Monday, January 01, 2007

Okay. This is the first post of the year on the first day of 2007. I'm doing this before the clock strikes midnight, becoming the 2nd day instead. But that's not the main point. If I were to do a recap on 2006, it would be best summarised as 'Bertie Bott's Every Flavour Beans'.

Sweet. Sour. Bitter. Salty. Spicy. Revolting. Bland.

Just everything you can think of.

For the start of 2007, I'd set up my mind and left some things behind, locking up in my memory. 2006 had been a strange year, with so many months of break (counting also the O's) and craziness packed. It's also the start of poly life for me (I wonder if I should cry or laugh about this).

Here's a list of significant things that happened throughout the year:

1. Months of lazing at home before the release of O's. I thought I was going insane during that period of time. My brain turned rusty that time too and my family isn't having much happiness that time.

2. Release of O's results. It's just there. No surprise or whatsoever but I reckoned I could do better for my English and Maths.

3. Struggling over the choice of which course and which poly to go (mainly between SP's BMS and TP's BIO). In the end, I got posted to TP's BIO which is my first choice.

4. My Orientation. Truth be told, I did feel out of place especially during the 1st and 2nd day of the orientation. Also, the formation of AF13. Still remembered how the whole class would go for lunch together but now we're going separate ways during lunch.

5. Gradually, the Mo Family formed. If I'm right, it changed from 7 people to 8 when Faiz joined in.=) Haha... it's one of the best things that happened in Poly. Those jokes shared and those pranks played.

6. The various cries and laughter that happened. The complaints that always happen before CSAS and the rush to complete the tutorials.

7. Attending the LTC. (for more details, refer to the post in Sept)

8. The day he left.

9. Returning to church.

10. The sleepover of Liwei, Khim and Aili just yesterday night.=)

Okay... that's it!

Last of all...

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!