Sunday, August 27, 2006

1 disc down for 'My lovely Samsoon', 3 more to go.

4 discs down for Japanese version's 'It started with a kiss', 2 more to go.

3 chapters down for HAP, another 3 more to go.

Untouched for OC, 8 to go.

All done for PIPC, fight tomorrow.

Shall win.

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

So blardy long since I made a blog post that makes sense. And I think I am addicted to making ambiguous blog posts so that people will go think, "Who is she talking about? Is it me?" Haha...I like to keep people in the dark.

The lack of normal blog posts is obviously, due to the looming of exams just ahead of this week. I am already a hardcore computer addict so it's really hard to tear myself physically and mentally, away from this tantalizing beauty (I mean the PC) here. But since it's EXAMS, I have to make a leeway and I limit myself to an hour each day.

I've tried and I've succeeded.

It's either you do get all the fun out of the internet and do badly for your exams OR you face your notes more than your computer and do desirably good. It's all about setting your priorities in life.

But studying is not my first priority. Well... my first priority is...

SLEEPING! *cheers*

I can't believe myself either until last night whereby I told myself that I'll just sleep a while and wake up at 11pm to study. In the end, I only managed to wake up at 1 am and that's not it, the not-so-tired me decided that why not continue sleeping and in the end, I was only up an hour ago.

And there leave my revision : UNDONE.

Being the good student that I am (I hear retching sounds), I obediently finished my [Carbohydrates] notes before coming to the computer. And now, it's lipids left. One more topic, one more topic, one more topic...for Biochem only...

My revision is getting on pretty well, I reckon. PIPC almost done and Maths's already on the track. So unless something drastic happens, I think I will be prepared for the exams and I look forward to the holidays after this. In this weekend, I will come up with a list of stuff that I gonna do and this list of stuff will keep me going throughout the examination period.

However, sometimes...

You can't help but feel drained.

This is called part and parcel of life.

Now it's back to the notes. =)

Sunday, August 20, 2006

Now, it's the time to put my determination to test.

Let's see how long I can hang on.

Let's see how long I can pretend that I never cared about anything.

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If you hate me for being me, then all I can say is, 'Too bad, cos' I don't like you too.'

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Don't ask if you don't believe me. I mean, what's the point?

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I'm still human afterall.

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PS: A real blog post will occur somewhere in the future but not now.

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

Crazy days.

Talk about the avalanche of work that you have to stuff in your brain.

Think about the mounting no. of things you wanna buy.

Muahahaha!!!

I feed on INSANITY.

And I thrive on STRESS.

Haha!

Monday, August 07, 2006

There's always this light called hope, no matter how faint it is.

And I'm not giving up, I'm just letting go.

=)

Friday, August 04, 2006

If possible, my mood just went a notch lower.

I fought back my tears and when I finally felt like crying, the tears didn't come. My emotions and problems are cooped up in a bottle and my heart is closed to most people. Most of the time, I just showed a side of me that looked like I'm bothered by nothing and that I'm strong.

As for the weak side of me, I simply keep it to myself. After so many years of living, my problems are still a 'no entry' to my friends and my family. At the most, I only give my sis that kind of vague idea without really confiding in her my woes.

I solve those problems that are bugging me on my own just simply because I trust myself to make the best decisions. But now, even this kind of trust in myself is wavering.

I don't understand what's the problem with me.

As human, problems define our character and how we handle things. Right now, I'm not coping too well and at times, I will just fall into deep thoughts about those things that my life revolved around. My intentions were misread when what I wanted to do was to help. So what do you expect me to do?

And then when I thought I was succeeding, you barge into my life once again and turn everything upside down. Should I just pretend that I don't really give a damn about you? But man, that's difficult. I'm still trying.

I'm hurt. I'm defeated. I'm picking myself up again.

The only thing that stood still is the faith I have in God.

Tuesday, August 01, 2006