Thursday, July 27, 2006

Sometimes, I can't help but feel like a weirdo. There's a lot of things I'd done in a moment of rashness. For example, I bought Jodi Picuolt's Plain Truth without much thinking. And then, I can still remember I bought The Sims 2 when my O's hadn't even ended.

And just now, I simply added everyone of my classmate into my MSN without thinking if I will ever chat with them or not. Haha~

It's just one sentence that rules all these rashness: Because I feel like it.

So, if any of you wonder who is the person you had just accepted or block, whatever, it's me. If you wonder who the hell is 'me', please turn your eyes onto the column on the left, under 'Spilt Persona'. However, I think if you're able to find your way here, you should already know who I am.

People do read my blog, ya know. Just that they don't bother to leave a trace here, like a simple tag or what. Like me, they are lazy. Haha~ That's one of the reason why I removed the tagboard. Why put up one when one hardly tags?

Besides, I don't tag either. Haha~

Recently, I feel weird doing those things I did. But from tomorrow onwards, no, from this moment onwards, I will snap out of my unrequited illusion and push all my riduculous thoughts far behind.

I hate it when I expect something to happen between us, which I know is impossible.

So, no more of these! NO MORE!

Because I know, I'm just another person.

Monday, July 24, 2006

I tear my lab coat today.

I accidentally spilled some smelly and pungent chemical on Juan Koh's stuff.

I had to deal with some really obnoxious people.

All in all, today was not my day. However, my day still proved to be better than Liwei and Juan Koh. The practicals made me tired and honestly, I'm about to doze off right now.

I have no idea how to keep going on for school. Even as much as I hate to admit it, school stuff is taking a toll on me. I'm still trying to get out of my depression for that idoitic OC quiz but yeah, it's getting better.

Then there's a ton of HAP stuff to memorise.

Following closely is PIPC, which I think I'm losing my hang on.

And then Maths, it's going into a whole new topic that's remotely related to A maths.

Biochem, I have no clue what he is teaching about. It's all my luck that had been doing all the work.

That's why I'm tired.

But no matter how tired I am, I knew I have to carry on. If not, what else can I do?

However, for the mean time, let me recuperate first.

Saturday, July 22, 2006

It's the kind of uncertainty that kills.

That makes you feel flustered.

And causes the knot in your chest to tighten.

I don't wanna guess those signs you're giving me.

If you don't tell me, then I'm going to ignore it.

Simple as that.

Thursday, July 20, 2006

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To be honest with you, I like this creation very very very much. (^^,) Done based on a tutorial by Hybrid Genesis. I don't really praise anyone but those guys are geniuses! Hee~

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

I guess it's true when someone in the past said that when you get to know a person better and better, the initial tolerance you have towards them just get lesser and lesser. I came to know this a few weeks ago, in the aspect of my class.

Where had the initial patience gone to?

I'm not a patient person to start with. To be exact, I'm very very impatient. My tolerance level is low and that's why I get pissed off easily. I'm blunt, I'm straightforward, but what to do? Lol~

I think it's better to be me. It's my life and I don't have to account to people for anything I did, if only I know I had somehow hurt that person. Maybe someday, some people will grow to dislike me but I will not give too much a damn. It will probably hurt at first but like always, I get over it - fast and snappy. I have nothing to worry about because I have nothing to hide

Sometimes when you try to help, they will think that you're somehow mocking silently at them and that's when everything will start to go wrong.

If I do good and my intentions are miscontrued, I'll still do good anyway.

At the end of the day, it's between me and God, not them.

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It always feel good to grab that difficult constract after much thinking. Can I proudly say that I had finished revising for Biochem? Yes, I think I can.

And now, what remains as a big headache is HAP. I wonder why but I never like stuff that requires memorising, I prefer thinking questions a whole lot more. Maybe later, I will touch on that.

I think, lately, I'm becoming more and more like a verbal prankster. Haha~

I think this aspect of mine, I gotta change. Hee...

Extracted from LILO AND STITCH :

- This is my family. I found it, all on my own. It's little, and broken, but still good. Yeah, still good. (Stitch)

- Ohana means family, family means nobody gets left behind. Or forgotten. (Lilo)

-It was raining, and they went for a drive. What happened to yours? I hear you crying at night. Are you thinking about them? I know that's why you wreck things, and push me. (Lilo- explaining the death of her parents to Stitch.)

-It's me again. I need someone to be my friend, someone who won't leave. Maybe send me an angel, the nicest one you have. (Lilo praying)

This is one of the best movies ever. =)

Saturday, July 15, 2006

A new day.

A new layout.

This time featuring my favourite colours and people : Black, red and Sanzo.

Tagboard is temporarily removed.

It's giving me problems.

And is very leceh.

When is it coming back?

Wait till I've the mood to put it up again.

X\

Friday, July 14, 2006

Everyday, we grumble and grudge about how imperfect our life is. These few days, I've seen a lot of my classmates grousing about how complex OC is becoming or how confusing PIPC is getting. I never really give them an answer. Some times I just nod and in worse cases, I ignored them.

Ignorance is not arrogance. It's just a way to tell them that 'I don't know how to reply you." Who said studying will be easy? It never was, and never will be. True, I've been granted a 'better' brain than the average but people never really saw the effort I put in too - however minute it may be.

I pass because I don't like the feeling of failing. I do well because I told myself to. That's just it. When you have that mentality to keep on going without giving up, you will eventually be happy of your results.

Now, enough of my philosophy and whatsoever. I should talk about my life.

It was an inner struggle all along, no matter how happy I appeared in front of the others.

Half of the time I didn't mean to say those bad things I said, it's just that I speak before I can think. I'm a blunt and straightforward person so whatever I said is the truth.

One last thing (I know, my life is like a dried-up well):

I'm not fierce. Just a lil' attitude.

Idiot.

Friday, July 07, 2006

This is my first post of July '06! Hoo-hoo~!

Firstly, let's get down to what I've been doing and experiencing for the past week. I think I like this week a lot, no scratch that, I like it a TON. Haha~ It had been a great week so far, especially when there's no CSAS and BioChem but yeah, only for this week.

The memorable thing that happened was the trip to KBOX yesterday. Well, I admit, it's my first time there but the supportiveness of those who went (14, I think) really trigger the courage in the quieter ones to sing, and I never knew Mai could sing so well. Liwei and Adelyn were asking her to take part in next season's SI. However I don't think there will be SI3.

What I'm trying to say here is, she sings well.

Luckily my mum didn't flare when I got back home at almost 9 yesterday. She did sound 'buay song' when I called her when I'm still at Parkway. So, phew. I was trying really hard to get home sooner. =
Today was, as usual, packed with numerous lectures. The first part was okay but everything just went a lil' haywire in the second. 3hours striaght wasn't the factor that made it bad, it was the subject itself. We sort of 'discuss' a lot about the veins and arteries in HAP notes, reckoning that something was wrong with the notes. Oh, it was more of an argue, but still, a positive one.

In end, I had to sms Ms Lim (sec school bio teacher) to clarify certain things. I wonder if she remembers me but that aside, she still did answer my question so still, thanks.

On the whole, it was a week with a negligible bit of seriousness and a trillion of craziness (mainly contributed by the certain girl who just got a new NIKE bag...haha). It was fun. After fun, it's time to get back down to studies.

We know our week can never be that perfect and yeah, my week has it own downside too. I really pray, hope and wish that my Dad will recover soon. He just threw up everything he ate yesterday. That's all I can do and the rest now, is to have faith in God. He will make everything okay for this family.

I believe.