Tuesday, May 30, 2006

I'm such a big emotional mess today.

Tears. Laughter. Seriousness. Minor moodswing.

Someday, I think I will snap.

Totally moronic.

Saturday, May 27, 2006

How many mistakes can one make before the wounds get so deep that it can't be healed?

Just how many?

Friday, May 26, 2006

Besides the mobile selling and flyers giving part, CCN day was overall, still quite a fun activity. Seriously, I don't like going around selling those stuff, probably because I don't like to persuade nor do I have a sweet gab.

The day ended with a 'MARY MOON' dance, a chicky dance and two TP songs. That was when all our spirits went up and almost everybody became enthusiastic. Although it was warm (we were all wearing black) after the little workout, it was pretty fun. So I don't really mind lah~

I really regretted forgetting to bring my digicam and just a side note, Stanley's digicam was so DAMN cool! Big LCD screen, 8.0 megapixels and we just have to touch the screen to see the next photo instead of pressing buttons. Must be expensive and for that one moment, I was envious of him. But then I thought of my Canon Digicam and realised, 'I don't really need that type of camera, I'm just happy with my own." Contentment. Yeah.

I'm really not that photogenic but who cares, I have a perfectly normal face (just a little big and chubby) so yeah... nvm lah... It's just life.

One thing to lessen our high spirits will be the OC quiz tomorrow at 9. I can't believe that I still have to go back to school on a beautiful Saturday morning. Haiz... There goes my Doraemon... Somemore, it is the last epi tml. This is really shiat...

I was just telling the others that OC stands for 'Oh...Si liao...' in hokkien language. Haha...Lame me...

Hmm...I love my friends at TP. They really colour my life with laughter and fun. They made me laugh every single day. They 'gossiped' with me. They studied with me. They dined with me anf they did every other things with me too although sometimes I can't help but roll my eyes at their random silliness. Thank you God for blessing me with friends like them.

Thanks a million. =)

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

It's not about the volumne of your voice, it is about the substance of your words.

It's not about talk, it's about action.

It's not about pretence, it's about talent.

It's not about one-man show, it's about cooperation and collaboration.

It's not about commanding, it's about emphatising.

It's not about breaking down, it's about standing strong.


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I can't remember when did I feel so pissed as when I did today but then, the girls around me really made it all better. I'm not angry, just pissed off. I couldn't feel myself raising my voice until Liwei and Wei Juan told me I was fierce just now. Was I really fierce?

Oh well, I didn't mean for things to turn out this way but guess that things just went out of my control. But it takes a lot to provoke me and raise my voice lah and I'm hinting something.

Okay, set aside those unhappy stuff and touch on my life.

Stayed back till quite late in school today to do the boards for CCN day and after 3 hours of fun, laughter, work and discussion, we managed to complete it. POWERR SIA~

The board is quite big but still, we managed to get things done and I think we're really incredible. Although it's quite taxing, it's quite fun lah. Wanna see the banners, here you go!





Haha, nice right? lol...

Okay lah, gotta go liao. Ciao!

Friday, May 19, 2006

Finally, this week is finally going into history, haha. This is the worst week in school ever, so damn packed with quizzes and makeup lectures. I tell you, whoever said that poly life is slack is so damn wrong. The lectures are so much worse than the tutorials, lab and quizzes combined together. Can you believe it?! I had have 3hrs of non-stop lectures for PIPC!

The quizzes are very fine for me except for maths. I'm so pissed at my carelessness. Haha... well, what is done cannot be undone. Ought to be more careful in the future.

The high point of the week was Khim's mini birthday celebration and yeah, it ended pretty soon cos' the boys went b-balling and some went for lunch. I think most of the people went home to STUDY for the three quizzes lined up neatly on the days. Here, I should note that I had spent so much money this week. B'dae present, food, Mother's Day present... Nevertheless, it was worth it lah...=)

A day or two back, I thought and groused inwardly about how imperfect my life was. School, making a fool out of myself in front of people, studying and memorizing those - idoitic- notes and lacking sleep. For that brief moment, I hated my life, the people in it and all the monotonous events that "colour" my life.

Then, a past friend of mine signed on in msn and his nickname reminded and shook me up. It goes like this, "Contentment; it is not getting what you want, it's realising how much you already have."

And then, as if God wanted to pull me out of those negative thoughts, I came upon Alex's site and his most recent entry was entitled 'Destiny." It was a read I don't thing I can forget, packed with reminders about how wonderful our lives is despite those obstacles and challenges that once in a while, popped out from nowhere. "Happiness isn't something to strive for, it is a choice." That was what he posted.

How true those two things are...

To be honest, my life isn't half as bad as I think it is. In fact, it is great! Haha...

I've made new friends, I'm blessed with a good brain, I've a cosy bed to sleep in, I've no worries for meals, I've a great school to study in and most importantly, I've God to give me guidance. So what could be worse? Nothing!

I'm now happy because I've decided to be so even though I don't get over 20 for that maths quiz. It's okay cos' my life isn't dependent on it. Count your blessings, not your worries.

And now, the road laid right in front of me doesn't seem so dark and scary anymore. (^.^)v

Monday, May 15, 2006

You can't be yourself if you want to fit into this world so ever perfectly. I'm not saying that it is impossible, just very difficult. I went in, be myself, and then triggered the displeasure in some people. Should I just withdraw back into my shell and view the world with my partially obscured eyes and not be part of it? But the answer to me, is always a big 'No Way'.

I can't please everybody because I'm only human, not a superman nor a wonder woman, just a simple girl living in this world. To those who disliked me with my way of doing things, just go ahead, I don't have the time or energy to bother. But please, don't make things difficult for any of us.

For those who understands me, I just want to say thank you. I'm blunt, I'm straightforward and what you see in school is what you get. I've never really tried to hide anything under my happy face. If I'm happy, I smile, if I'm sad, I'll be expressionless.

Maybe I'm being over-sensitive in this case but then again, to me, it is okay to be sensitive than be oblivious until someone stabs you with a knife. You'll just bleed to death then and nobody will really care.

I'm strong and I can carry on forward after receiving numerous wounds and criticisms. But what about you, are you in the same league as me?

There will always be a time when the whole world seemed to go against me and what will happen then? I won't collapse for I will stand strong and proud. =)

Thursday, May 11, 2006

A couple of points to take note of (this is serious):

1. Do not talk when someone in the group is talking. Discuss, yes, but not speak at the same time. It will only add on to the confusion of the listeners.

2. Give more, take less. Many things in life isn't about how much you've taken but how much you've contributed.

3. Analyse things into detail and think before you speak.

4. Be more patient in teaching abstract concepts even when your student doesn't get it after an hour.

5. Never let anybody change you, just be who you are even when cute guys are around.

6. If you ever let the seven sins take control of you, you're a gone case.

7. Ask and help will be given to you.

8. Don't meddle in other people's business .aka. kaypohing.

9. Selflessness has always been a virtue.

And Lastly... ...............Be contented. =) Originally and authentically penned by Caroline.

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

Gonna blog a little before I go back to Dunman to get my O Cert and then go straight to TP.

I can't seem to study well yesterday when I'm at home all day long. The motivation to memorise the facts for HAP was sort of lessening so ever drastically. Luckily I managed to already get some parts thru my thick skull. Haha~

I prefer BioChem to HAP leh~

The thought of meeting Mai and Khim for lunch makes me drool. I'm hungry right now but my house is stockless. What should I eat later on?? Hmm... Western food or something else?

I finally realised something about myself and that is I think better when I'm about to go to sleep. Solutions and explanations I couldn't understand on abstract concepts will automatically come to me when I'm thinking during that period of time.

Oh hoh~ I'm one big ball of confusion...Haha~

Saturday, May 06, 2006

Okay, I did not have a great day yesterday. Truth be told, it can officially be one of my worst days and here's a list of things that made it so bad. Hmph.

1.Lectures, lectures and more lectures.
Believe it or not, yesterday was full of lectures and more lectures. If I have total up the hours of lectures, it would be 6 freaking long hours in the LT. Although I like sciences and maths, it's simply too much of an overdose. I was practically struggling in the LT: debating with my mind whether I should sleep or listen. In the end, I fulfilled the latter and that indeed took me lots of self-discipline. I felt so much like skipping my last lecture too but in the end I didn't despite feeling tired. Haha. Was like trying to figure stuff on my own than to listen to the OC lecturer and I think I understand most of the things right now. Haha... I never fail to amaze to amaze myself.

But the thing is, I'm feeling so tired at the end of the day. Part and Parcel, I guess.

2.Consequences of going against my Conscience.
This should be the first time in my teenage years that I'm feeling so embarassed. I should have go along with what my heart and mind told me what to do instead of staying with the class. The only one to blame is myself. The story is like this, my class is supposed to change LT after the HAP lesson but all we did was to sit glued to the chair, unmoving. Then things start to go wrong when the ChE students start to flow into the LT and as expected, there's not enough seats. This resulted in most of them having to sit on the stairs instead.

The most I do was to feel extremely guilty and I wanted to go back to LT 7 but my classmates didn't want to so eventually I stayed with them, till Ms Quah came and loudly told us to go to where we belong. That's when stares were being thrown on us as we moved out of the LT. I would never want to experience this again. Bleah.

I can imagine some ChE students complaining about this on their blog if they have one. Lol...

3.Episode of the Bus and EZ-Link Card.
I don't know what happened to me on the bus yesterday but I really forgot what's the number of the bus I was on. I thought I was on bus 8 but when the bus turned into the opposite lane instead of going forward, I knew something was damn wrong. I remained so calm that I surprised myself. In the end, the double-decker bus turned out to be 23 and thus, it stopped at the interchange.

Way before the bus stopped at the interchange, I had already taken out my adult ez-link card but I didn't realise that I'd taken the wrong one out (my tertiary student one) and the machine sort of beeped loudly it was so paiseh. In the end I got off without scanning my card. =\

4.Salty Food (not considered bad thou)
Salty fried rice for lunch, salty burger for dinner. Need I say more?

5.House Blackout.
This is the worst out of the five I tell you. Of all times, my house has to blackout when I'm doing my online assessment. It can be only done once and the time limit is 30minutes. When my PC shut down, I'm at question 8. I told myself it's okay cos' at least my 8 questions would be marked and I will at least get a score, no matter how low it is. But the system refused to give me any marks! Hmph. I'd already emailed the lecturer and I'm waiting for the reply right now. I can imagine them saying, "I'm sorry that happened but you cannot redo the test."

Sucks lah. I'm really so damn suay... My mum say that this is a test given to me by god. But what lesson can I learn from it? Not to do online assessment on the house is going to black out? As if I know when the house will black out and when it doesn't!

Freaking electric supply.

-END-

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

OMG... I've forgotten about my 'The Perfect Match" book ever since my orientation started and that was like 3 weeks ago. Found no energy or concentration to read it ever since everything in my life started, it's like studying, studying and studying. But somehow, I'm enjoying it.

I shall get my ass down on the sofa and finish the rest of the book during the weekends. Yes, that shall be the way.

I've signed up for MSC today in a spurge of a moment. I haven't really decide whether to join or not leh but then just sign up and see how things go first lah. Depends, depends, depends...

Today was like one totally crazy (or mad) day for me in school. Laughed in the library with my classmates over a symbol that resembles 'w' even when I told myself that it is not funny. My insides were going numb after 25 minutes in the library. Oh...how this reminds me of my times in secondary school. Miss those times a lot.

Biochemistry is an interesting yet hostile subject. It's officially the most hated subject in the whole of the year 1's who happen to take this subject. DNA, RNA, nucleoside, nucleotide and blah blah blah...

Somehow, I have the feeling that it will be HAP that is difficult to score in. Don't ask me, cos' I don't even know why. Oh, what am I talking about...?

Okay, I think tt's all for today. Tired, need some sleep. Sayonara!

Black Wednesday.