Sunday, April 30, 2006

Everything in school is going pretty fine for me. It's a good head start and that's all that matters. Had a revelation about myself during the past week and found that I don't really care about how some people look at me despite knowing me for only a week. I am Caroline, I don't go around seeking the attention of others. I'm always in the background and I like that. =)

The only thing I cherished in TP now is the new friendships that were forged in the past week with some of the girls in my class. They are simple, just like I am and I'm glad that we clicked off pretty well, although there's still qualms about subjects that we shouldn't touch on. Anyway, who would when you only know some people for a week?

I like the subjects biotech has to offer. I'm back at what I do best and that is maths and sciences. Luckily I'm not one of those that are going to compete in one of the spaces for vet science cos' I'm definitely choosing another option. Why not vet science? Let's just say that I'm not too fascinated about animals.

I'm happy that I'm adapting to changes rather than resisting it. That's a good trait. Some people wondered why I came to poly with that score of mine but doing science as the main thing is my dream. I would rather I'm able to do science for a small part of my life than not able to do it when I moved on to university. I don't give in easily to things that I believed in. This is also known as 'obstinancy'.

Okay lah, I'm going to enjoy this long weekend before I go back to school on Tuesday. =)

Someone had said that a dream that can be realized isn't a dream anymore.

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

The sky is cracking with lightning, premonitating the start of a downpour again. Wait a minute, it is already raining... oh well. Today wasn't too fruitful for me even when I went to school in the morning for some PC orientation. I'm looking forward to tomorrow whereby lectures start for me.

I'm saying HELLO! to my a maths again lol~ Logarithms, intergration and differientation. Somehow, these familiar topics remind me of Miss Nawal. I'm not too sure if the lecturers will be as patient as her but I'm not carrying high hopes though. I hope that I'm ready for studies again. Hmm...

The matriculation card sucks okay... The quality of the photo is bad lah and the layout isn't very nice either. The one my sis previously had is much better and much normal, meaning that mine is quite abnormal. I tell you, freshies can be easily sifted out from the rest of the students. The distinctive trait is that, freshies travel in packs, get lost so easily and is highly enthusiastic. I experienced all that today. Well, maybe except for the last part.

The lunch with the class was pretty fine on the whole although the chicken rice was cold and so little. If it costs more than $2.50, I would have complained loudly. Spent money on notes and presents which I hope the b'dae girl will like. Didn't go back to school with the rest of the class though, have a headache that demanded rest from me. Shucks, I seemed to get headaches more and more easily these days. Bleah.

Sometimes, I feel really stupid doing certain things for certain people. I'm actually convinced that selfishness for one-self is pretty good at times like this, when your kindness isn't reciprocrated with even a simple 'Thank You'. Seriously, that's all I need. Shit, better stay out of her way and she better stay out of mine. I don't want conflicts.

Conclusion: I've confirmed that I DON'T LIKE HER. Period.

An attempt at movie posters.

Monday, April 24, 2006

My timetable surprised and shocked me pretty much, especially after I counted the no. of hours I have to spend in school, studying. Peeps, it's 33hrs/week, including lab work, tutorials and lectures. But then, I can't really say that I dislike my timetable that much. I kinda miss studying and poring over notes and all that stuff.

It's time to put my brain to work again and I'm looking forward to that. Somehow, I didn't regret not going to a JC, probably because most of my pals who went there are already crumbling under the inhumane and immense workload. Just hoping that I do as well in poly as I did in Dunman. Haha~

Talking about regret, I bought two t-shirts a size too big for me. The sleeves are too long leh~ How arh? Luckily, the t-shirts are on-sale and each costs only 6 bucks so heart no so pain. Besides, I can still wear it after folding up the sleeves lol... Should have bought the smaller size then it will be more fitting.

Other than splurging on the shirts, also bought pens and all the other necessary stationery to kick start a new semester. Yeah, I'm pretty much looking forward to that. Haha~

Have been praying a lot recently, hoping that I can adapt to Poly life soon and wishing that I have friends to hang out with. I had been giving all my problems to God and then facing it again by myself with the newfound courage and strength. He always will ensure that I will be okay at the end of the day, even when I may be feeling fearful at that point of that time.

I believe in Him and He made me believe in myself. I'm thankful. The church is my heart and that's where I'll worship him. =)

Saturday, April 22, 2006

The first day of orientation started out pretty rough for me. Periods of going in and out of the sun, sessions of getting thoroughly wet on the lower half of the body and then getting dried by the air-conditioner in LT5. And then there was also indoor activities which I think were more fun than the outdoor ones. On that day itself, I made the worst decision -I decided to WALK home. The journey was far too long and I thought my legs weren't my legs anymore. I actually contemplated not to come for the 2nd day due to a headache but in the end, I still managed to pull my ass out of my bed in the 2nd morning.

I'm glad that I turned up for the 2nd day. It was so much fun despite the fatigue that was getting more and more obvious in most of us especially after the mass dance. For the mass dance, I can't seem to get the rhythm correct lol but in a way, it was still pretty good. Played lots of indoor games requiring the teamwork factor and I'm somewhat relieved that it turned out pretty well, except for the skipping game. I sort of 'kicked' the girl behind him and I'm guilty about that. Sorry~

Well, got wet on the 2nd day too. Bleah~

As for the final day, which was just yesterday, it was lots of fun too. Had the final clash, Vampires .VS. Lycans which means that we got wet, yes again, playing with the water bombs. It was darn fun lar... We practically went from dry to wet and then back to dry again. Our group (class), won the award for best caregroup. Haha~ I guess we were that 'high'est batch among the rest of the freshies in Applied Science. As for the regatha, all I could remember was being squeezed like a tuna in the sports complex. However, the spirits ran high as we shouted and cheered for the AS team.

It's perfectly fine for me that we lost. Winning isn't everything cos' I'm sure that I had fun participating in all the activities although I had a little sunburn on my arms and face.

My classmates sort of rocks, although some's first impression went against them. Guess that I need to know them better so better put the first impressions aside first. And the orientation leaders are really so damn dedicated - Bendy & Michel. Gotta thank them for the fun and guidance they had given in the last three days. So, Thank You! =D

School's starting on tuesday and I'm a little excited and a little apprehensive but then I'm sure that things will work their way out. God will always ensure that even though there are times I forget to thank him when things eventually went all right for me.

One last thing, thank you God for shining your light on me all these while, blessing me whenever you could. Thank you. =)

Saturday, April 15, 2006

I've already spent the $20 times voucher on a $17.80 book and a silly bookmark because we'd to fully utilise the voucher. The piggy bookmark was pretty useless and I think it's somewhere under my piles of papers. Eventually, I will find some use for that thing.

As for the book... I'm more than halfway through it and the book is definitely worth a read. The way the author portrays the characters, Nina, Caleb, Quentin, Patrick, Nathaniel etc. is so realistically good. It is not about lovey-dovey relationship but rather, it discusses matters on parentage, marriage and how easy it is to jump into conclusions and do the wrong things for all the right reasons.

It seem as if the author herself have gone right into the center of the characters' heart and experience things on their behalf. The right emotions accompanied every ups and downs every single of the characters went through.

Oh right, before I go into other things, the title of this book is "Perfect Match" by Jodi Picoult. This book reminded me of my passion for reading.

Yesterday, I went to my sister's student's house to observe how my sister teach Shawn (aka The Student). The little guy is pretty cute and bespectacled. As expected, his thoughts are as mature as his age which is only eight. My sister is passing the baton to me because her work is far too tolling on her to juggle between tution and work.

I hope I can teach him as well as my sis did lah~

And when we were walking home yesterday after the tuition, my sister asked, "Do you look forward to teaching him? How many percent?"

After some calculations, I replied, "30%"

My sister's expression was like "Huh? 30% only?"

Then I explained to her that I'm looking forward to the my school's orientation more than tutoring the kid lah. By the way, my orientation is finally, after so damn long, ARRIVING! I sincerely hope that those activities organised are not too mundane. I'm going to pray to God that the 3days will be fun-filled.

I didn't managed to go to the TPSU's orientation workshop because they didn't reply me. I suspect that they did not recieve my application. But then, I don't mind lah cos' I haven't even decide whether to go when I submitted the online form.

Yiting has been coming to my house recently, already twice in the past week. I hope everything goes fine for her when she retake her O's at the end of this year. I was just telling her not to hesitate to call me if she got stuck in her maths and science and that I'll try to help her wherever I can.

May God bless her.

And me too. =)

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

Adults never keep their promises. Liars. Excuses.

I dread becoming an adult one day. Hmph.

Friday, April 07, 2006

My life is not complete. It's lacking in the educational department and I'm experiencing not much distinctive emotions when I'm at home, practically doing nothing except for computering and all that stuff.

I've thought a lot about my life during these months, usually during the night as I lay on my bed, staring at the dark ceiling. I know I'm a blessed child even though I groused about certain trivial things that is of not much significance in my life.

I love my friends. They are a beautiful part of my life and even though we seldom meet, I know we're trying to manage this friendship. I don't need too many friends swarming about in my life. I just need a few who treats me true.

I love my family too, although there are times the thought of 'my mother is biased' float across my life. They made me into this strong girl who don't easily crumble and fall in defeat when faced with obstacles. I'm doted on but I am never the spoilt brat who whined when something didn't go her way.

I love my aunts and grandmother too. They are one-of-a-kind relatives you could ever be blessed with. It is just like having many mothers to care and advise you.

Most importantly, I love God. He was the one that made everything possible that was why I never really begged for certain things to happen. He had planned everything for me and I just have to go the path instructed. He gave me my friends, my brains and my family. I love Him.

In another few weeks time, school will be starting and I hope true friends will line the path I'm taking.

After this post, I'll treasure my life even more because it had been a smooth-sailing one so far. Love them so much, I'm serious!

=)

Thursday, April 06, 2006

I spent so much money on comics. So so so much but I'm not going to stop, I'm going to splurge more on them.

(44 X 5) + (7 x 5) = ???

I don't really know lah. Lazy to use mental calculation and the calculator is out of my reach but I supposed it is around $300. I think the money spent is worthwhile cos' the drawings for Saiyuki and DDS are good. All drawn so handsomely *drools*.

I wouldn't say the same for Conan cos' I've since long stopped collecting it. Now, I borrow it from my friend. It's the 52nd book and still growing. As read the comic yesterday, I've got a feeling that the author is running out of ideas. The murder cases are becoming too predictable that I managed to solve a case while reading through.

I concluded that Conan isn't worth collecting cos' I doubt I'd be reading it for the second time.

Right now, I'm gathering titles of comics so I can check them out sometime these days. I want to collect another series. I doubt I will be buying [Spiral] cos' it is about detective cases and I've enough of that. I want ACTION!

Romance? How I would cringe at the thought.

Maybe I'll be getting Japanese animation too. See how my pocket fare first. Haha...

Okay, my dad is at home today and he's napping right now. This is a good thing cos' he had been boasting how delicious his Pig Stomach Soup (loosely translated) is. But then again, it tastes really good, can't deny.

Lol...

Monday, April 03, 2006

The winner of campus superstar really really rocks! I'm extremely pleased that Zhiyang won the overall champion for he was well-deserving of it. Not to say that Teresa wasn't good, but to me, she was boring and a notch lower when compared to Zhiyang. My sis ter and I voted at the last minute of the fast round, when Renfred was leading Zhiyang.

For a moment, I thought the Final 2 will be Teresa and Renfred and I was already like half-sian liao. If it was really the both of them, I doubt I'll be continuing to watch. Luckily, Zhiyang managed to emerged as the male champion and my whole family was like going 'YEAH!' with our arms in the air. LOL...

But my ideal top 2 was Zhiyang and Dean. Nevermind, can't expect everything to go our way can it? Calvin Soh was one a**hole on the judging panel. He was the one that asked Dean if she was having sore-throat. She merely answered, 'Have it since long." Then he replied, "That's not an excuse."

I mean, what's the point of asking when he knows it wasn't an excuse? It was totally uncalled for.

Dean didn't do that badly yesterday despite all those circumstances that were not in favour of her.As for Renfred, let's just say that I'd never really liked him since beginning.

Again, Zhiyang really blew me away yesterday. I know he could sing during the semis and all that but he never really struck a chord with me but last night was just BAM! When he sang those songs, except for superwoman, I'd the sudden urge to fall in love lol... His duet with Sinhuey turned out surprisingly refreshing.

By the way, I thought that the stage was a little too small and the fans were buay zi-dong, screaming when the judges are commenting, especially those from a certain girls school.

Now, enough of the CSS 'report'. Let's go into PS and my life.

I've won a creative award for my Ayumi art for Exonerated which is the first time. This had certainly boosted my confidence. My inspirations are back. Haha... Well, here's another piece, my very first attempt at this type.


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I'm still obsessed with this anime. =P

And this is the prize tag. Oh yah, Z- is me. Haha...




I'm alone at home right now until 5.30. My sis has finally found a law firm to work in and today is her first day. Hopes that everything does well for her. You know, she's the type that practically snaps under pressure.

Oh yeah! I rock the house!