Friday, May 20, 2005

I'm back. Got back all my papers. I should be surprised and shock, but I'm feeling neither. I don't even know why. This is Mid-Year Exam, and I think many did rather badly. The good news is that I didn't fail, but the bad news is that my results had went down.

English - 53.6/100
I got 36/60 for my paper one and 23/50 for my paper two. I know its bad. I can only work harder.

Chinese - 74/100
This happens every year. I just need one more mark to get an A1! It's okay. I don't mind it anymore. Numbed.

E Maths - 67.3/100
Disappointing. Motivating too. The fall from A to B is kind of hard. I can do better next time.

A Maths - 67.5/100
Lots of careless mistakes. Had to be more careful in the future. I'm one of the lucky few to pass this!

Combined Science (Phy/Chem) - 78.8/100
This is comforting and surprising! I've got 55/65 for my physics and 47/65 for my chemistry. 21.5/30 for my practical and 34/40 for my MCQ. Well, this marks will definitely make my report card look better.

Biology - 55.6/100
No comment.

DnT - 61/100
Too Numbed to feel anything. But it's time to work hard.

Combined Humanities - 55/100
Finally, I passed.

This time round, the exams were exceptionally tough. I have friends around me getting 30+ for their L1R5. Some were utterly disappointed. Others were worrying about how they should tell their parents about it. However, failing the papers does not mean that that is the end for you. Failing means that you had to try harder.

I know, sometimes I studied hard, but the result weren't up to my expectations. Then I realized something, no matter how hard I tried, it's not hard enough. So I knew had to try even harder the next time. Take for example, my biology.

The marks are just numbers. Nothing will happen if you keep on pondering about them, instead, I think it's time to work on how should we improve. To me, Mid-Year Exam is a Wake-Up Call.

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

CRAP. Got back 3 papers today, yeah, don't ask me why we spent 1 day going through only 3 subjects. Well, didn't do well, not at all. Won't talk about marks here, at least not now. Let's wait till Thursday before I record my results here. But, so far so bad.

Kind of irritated by the attitude of LHY today. She was grumbling to me at her pretty A2 score for E Maths. I mean, there was no reason for her to grumble about her grade to some who scored lower than her eh? That 'someone' is me, by the way.

Mid-year Exams are like a wake-up call. Yep, it is time to realise that I'm not as good as I think I am. Yeah, I hope things will take a turn for the better tommorrow, which I highly doubt so. The teachers are trying to slaughter us with their strict markings. It's Combined Humanities tomorrow morning. I think I won't have any breakfast lest I'll puke at my hideous results.

My confidence for my A maths seemed to have plunged a little. I won't set my expectations at A1 anymore. Yep, let it go this way first.

Haven't even told my mother about my results. I think I'll wait till Thursday again. Hopefully by then, I would have better grades lol...

Saturday, May 14, 2005

Finally, it is over. The two mentally straining weeks had taken a toll on me lol...

People around me complained about this Mid-Year this time, not that they hadn't previously, but this was the one which they thought was the toughest. Which paper(s) is/are the easiest? Let me see. I personally think that it's A Maths and Chemistry. For the rest, I did a lot of crapping but hope that I can scrape through and get a decent grade or something near there. No use grumbling after the exams. Caroline, it is OVER.

I think taking the exam in the hall was cool, haha. Moreover, sitting around with those fun guys (and gals) was fun, that is, before every paper starts. We did a lot of crapping and lame joking, especially on the day we had 2 hours to ourselves before our DnT paper. For some strange, mad reason, we didn't manage to get far in our last minute revision. Probably due to stress or something, we joked and made fun of each other.

I didn't go out today, I came back home straight after my last paper. I thought I needed some sleep to replenish my energy before I go out and have fun with my friends. By the way, I've thought of watching a movie, but what's there to watch?

Okay! Let me recharge myself first before I go and play. Let me have fun before I go back to school on Tuesday for my results. Yep, that's how it should be.

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

It's never good to feel stressed over Mid-Year Exams. For me, the stresser (is there such word?) I am, the less effective I study. But being so relaxed meant that I haven't touch on some subjects I am supposed to start weeks ago. Nevermind. It's okay. It's nothing big. It's just MYE. It's not O' Levels.

D & T wasn't going really well. My speed of working on the folio AND the project is equivalent to the speed of TORTISE running. I promised Lee that I will be more hardworking on my D & T after my MYE. He wanted me to stay back daily during holidays but I don't mind, not at all. I will finish everything that I set my mind to, at least, I will never stop trying.

Weeks ago, I flipped through a book I bought ages ago, and yeah, I mean AGES. It states, "A way of maintaining a good and successful friendship is never to make promises you can't keep." I read it and thoughts came running through my head. It's really true. I learnt something. From this book, I learnt lots of things which I never knew existed. Shame on me, I never paid much attention to it even though I bought it.

There's English paper tomorrow but I can't feel the heat. It's just English. English is a subject which sometimes include luck when you did well for it. I hope I can do at least fairly well. No hopes too high, if not I will feel more disappointed than ever.

All right, I am off!

Life doesn't sucks. It is great if you know how to live it.