Wednesday, March 30, 2005

This week is crammed with a huge amount of things. I can't understand my physics. I can't do my A maths WS. I can't continue my folio. I can't finish reading my book. There are so many "CAN'T" in my mind right now. It's already 8 in the night, and I have not finish my assignments. I have not prepared for my tests. This is really sticky.

Today was a bad and meaningless day. I've found the worst person that ever existed in this whole wide world. Maybe I don't know him well, but that don't stop me from detesting him. He is such a manner-less brat. He is egoistic. He thinks that women can't be on par with men. He thinks that he can discriminate the fat. He is so wrong manz... I will prove him wrong, cos his conceited presence just pollute the air around me. He doesn't even know to respect people and for this, I won't respect him too. _ _ z i _ _ _ a

Miss Kwek lost our common tests paper. I am quite surprised when she told me that because in my opinion, she had always been a very organized teacher. But since this happened, I've got nothing to say. I wasn't unhappy or disappointed in fact. Maybe because I know my results will suck when I got back the test? I think so.

Luckily I'm in Sec4 now. Luckily I'm graduating soon. Luckily I only need to endure a few more months of TAF run during recess.

I'm looking forward to that.

Friday, March 25, 2005

My Saving Grace

I've still got a lot to learn
But, at least I know where I can turn
When I'm in my times of need
Just as long as I know all things are possible
Just as long as I believe

I've loved a lot, hurt a lot
Been burned a lot in my life and times
Spent precious years wrapped up in fear
With no end in sight
Until my saving grace shined on me
Until my saving grace set me free

Giving me peace
Giving me strength when I'd almost lost it all
Catching my every fall
I still exist because you keep me safe
I found my saving grace within you

Yes, I've been bruised
Grew up confused
Been destitute
I've seen life from many sides
Been stigmatized
Been black and white
Felt inferior inside
Until my saving grace shined on me
Until my saving grace set me free

And the bountiful things that you do
Lord, thank you
For delivering me

My Composition will be marked by Mrs Neo.

I hope she won't die marking my paper.

And one thing.

I'm not a saint.

I am not that knowledgable

So don't give me that face when I tell you I don't know how to do.

Because I mean it.

Lastly,

Don't try competing my results with yours.

Cos' I don't care.

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

There's small little black creatures flying about. I couldn't kill them with a clap of my hands. They stung my arms and make it swell like crazy. Yes, those DAMN mosquitoes are back again! Argh...its so shitty. They even sting my earlobe and finger. I am going to kill them soon with Baygon and the tennis-like racket to send them to Heaven (or Hell). Hiak Hiak!

Okay dokie, back to serious stuff. I visited many of my friends' blog and I realised that they are penning their results on their blog. Some were contented and some were disappointed. Well, its actually not how much you've scored that matters, but how much you've learnt after the test. I don't mind failing, because I know that by failing, I will realised the importance to actually study hard for that subject. And I'm talking about Geography here. I scored a pathetic 4 points but I realised that I wasn't disappointed, because I know I didn't study much for it.

I got an A2 for Biology, for the first time this year. I deserved it, because I didn't slack for this common test. I took it seriously. I studied hard and I reaped what I sowed. I know that if I've done my best, I can leave the rest to God.

English - 38/60
Chinese - 40.5/50
E Maths - 31/35
A Maths - 35/40
Science (Phy/Chem) - 39/50
Humanites (SS/Geo) - 20/40
Biology - 35.5/50

That's all. ^^,

What will come, will come. And we can only face it when it does.

Monday, March 21, 2005

I am feeling very very sleepy for this weekend but luckily there was coffee to perk me up. For the whole morning, I'd been rushing my homework, trying to complete them before tomorrow and guess what, I am almost done with them. There are some assignments which I don't intend to finish it. For example, E Maths and SS worksheets. Kinda give up on them.

By the way, Chemistry is seriously driving me insane. I spent an hour plus trying to rack my brains for the correct formulas and compound but in the end, I still think that my answers are wrong. I tried my best and I really do. Seriously, if my memory served me right, this is the first time I ever got trounced by the questions in the workbook. Oh gosh, this meant something. This meant that my Chemistry is de-proving. Or does the problem lies with the teacher? *thinks of Mrs Lim*

No no no, can't blame the teacher though. Its hard for her to teach a class like us. I can't possibly put all the blame on her when I am not putting effort for this subject. I should really be more hardworking than I am now. No more computer-ing or slacking. But all this = NO FUN!

It's all up to me to fight off those tempting temptations, nonetheless.

Sunday, March 20, 2005

I woke up and I slept and I woke up again. Felt like a sleeping log today. It was already eight in the night when I woke up from my 'nap' and I had already slept for 6 hours! Due to my oversleeping, I did not touch any of my homework today which I thought I am supposed to. School is reopening on a beautiful Monday morning and I hoped that it will rain lol...*looks up in the sky* If it rains, that means there will not be any 2.4km run! I love that.

Anyway, let me take you back to yesterday. I watched the [Lemony Snicket] movie yesterday and it was pretty good. Sunny, the youngest one was cute and somewhat mischievous, she bite anything and everything. Violet is always the level-headed one among the all and as for Klaus, I do wish I had his photographic memory. Together, they worked together to get out of sticky situations and the clutches of the nasty Count Olaf (is this the correct spelling?). Anyway, its a cool movie afterall.

At night I watched 'The Incredibles' VCD and I love Dash! Without this little guy, the show would lack the sense of humour. I love his speed too! He's really fast manz... And not to forget the little gibberish infant , Jack Jack! But, his super power is somewhat scary - turning into a ball of flames, a devil and a metal. Gotta get the VCD if I had the money, nope, this VCD is rented by my Dad.

Saturday, March 19, 2005

Went back to school for the third time this week and met Huiying who was ranting about how difficult the DnT was for her and mind you, she had already taken last Thursday before the holidays. Alvin then tell me that he study only at eight in the morning and I was like, "Are you sure a not?" I met him on the bus.

Okay, then the both of us were the earliest to reach there lah but still have to wait for the other 3 guys to come before Ms Kwek wanna start. I was stuck for the test and I have got the feeling that I am going to do really badly this time round. Don't even know what I am doing for the wood turning question. I was rather surprised that no one mentioned about the difficulty of the test when it was over. Oh well, but I think I am going to fail this.

Going to watch Lemony Snicket with SPQ later on. Too bad for me, the time for Howl's moving castle was too late. Hiaz, think that the movie didn't sell that well. How sad can it be?

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

Wasn't feeling really good today. Wasn't feeling bad either. Just feel like a human.

Met up with Serena and Yiting for the "Hitch" movie. It was hilarious, but I wasn't really laughing the way I should be laughing. Things are occupying my mind and the problem is, I don't know what they are. When I was out just now, I kept misplacing my things, first my wallet, then the movie tickets and finally my handphone. In the end, they were just somewhere in my bag and my pockets.

Actually I wanted to call Peiquan out after finishing the movie date with my primary school friends, but she's at Cow-Car-Water. So, I had to go along with the original plan of watching Howl's Moving Castle and Lemony Snicket with her on Friday.

My Chinese Composition is sitting on one end of my table, waiting for me to complete it. Its such a busy week and I won't emphasize on the word HOLIDAYS. Holidays aren't meant to be spent like this, dealing with school stuff.

My mum is nagging me to tidy up my messy beyond words room. Wanna take a look? Snap a few photos of my room. Here you go!

Monday, March 14, 2005

There is someone who I give my worries to.

Someone who I entrusted my hope with.

Someone who never leave me.

Someone who I can talk anything to.

Someone who guide me through all my difficulties.

Someone who shine down on me.

That someone is my heavenly Father - Jesus Christ.

He made me believe in myself.

He made me have faith in this world.

He showed me the way of life.

Without him, I'm nothing.

Sunday, March 13, 2005

Just a random creation... Starring Vicki Zhao...

Saturday, March 12, 2005

Today got scolded by Miss Kwek, although not me. I was just like an extra and she was there like scolding three guys. She was really mad, I could see that though. So, Dnt test was postponed to the Friday during the holidays. I wasn't really happy with the way things are going.

Got back my A maths and it was good, 35/40. I lost all my marks on the Combination question. Nevermind, at least I learnt something. Thats gonna be better than scoring full marks just by luck. Chinese was okay though...no surprises of the paper being too difficult or too easy. I was only stressed for the Biology, which I studied so hard but I guess I won't be doing well. I thought of dropping the subject but since I love challenges, why not I take it as a challenge?

Went out with Michelle, Pei Quan and Melissa after school. Pei Quan and Michelle were the quieter ones as compared to me and Melissa lol... We are the one doing most of the talking and the other two were just simply listening to our nonsense. The two Ms went Giordano to buy clothes and we were there giving our PRICELESS opinion. I swear, if I have money in the future, I will open a shop that sell clothes for the plump. Then I will be opening chain outlets ater that and I can show to people that it doesn't mean that if you are fat, you can't be confident in front of people. Haha...That's a dream..hehe...

Melissa kept urging me to lose weight - She's curious to see how I look like after I slim down. Haha....Maybe I can if I'm determined enough, afterall, I have 3 months after the O'levels and lets see what happen then. There are so many possibilities in the future.

I realised that once you get hurt, you can just hide in one corner to heal and after that you will be all ready to set off again! So, never get defeated by any disappointment or pain. Afterall, life is only completed when there's Faith and Hope!

By the way, Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince is out on July 16th!


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When you get caught in the rain, with nowhere to run
When you're distraught and in pain, without anyone
When you keep crying out to be saved
But nobody comes and you feel so far away
That you just can't find your way home
You can get there alone
It's okay, what you say is

I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again, on my own
And I know that I'm strong enough to mend
And every time I feel afraid, I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day
And I make it through the rain
..* Through the Rain by Mariah C.

Friday, March 11, 2005

Friday is arriving again and after this friday, here comes holidays. I'm not happy because I know that I will be busy. But then again, holidays is a period of time which I can catch up with my friends and be back on the track with them again.

Time can be a cruel thing. They can break all ties and after time began to take its action, you will eventually find that you no longer desire to be together with some people. We are all victims and there is absolutely no way to fight against time. Time is a must.

Everyday, I feel that I am racing against time and I'm most of the time losing. Some change should take place in me. Enough about my philosophy or whatsoever.

Its the common test it and I will be sitting for my last paper tomorrow. I thought I could score well for physics but in the end, my result weren't up to my expectations. Combined Humanities really change the shape of my hand. I was rushing and I didn't even know what I was writing for Geography. Its going to be a bloody score.

Biology wasn't any better. I forgot most of the things but for E & A Maths, I think I should be able to secure an A1. Things should be better for Chinese and DnT.

I hate people sometimes. They pissed me off by saying things that I do not want to hear. But I am not going to care.

Sunday, March 06, 2005

I tried to be hardworking.

But I think I failed.

Common test is on their way here and I'm still slacking. But, revising work had NO LIFE!!!

I rather be learning new things out there!

Don't tell me that I lose to who or whatever.

Cos' I think I don't care.

YAWN...Yawn...yawn... Can't seem to get out of my tired status lately. As usual, school had been quite busy but ironically, I don't even know what I had been busy for. Oh well, but there goes another week. Time really flies huh? My common test is arriving and after the week packed with tests, its a week of holidays!

I think my computer had been invaded by some kind of virus. Got to ask my sister to fix it later on. The whole internet seemed to have gone haywire and I hate the thought of that. I hadn't been using the computer for a day! That gotta be a record for someone who usually hang herself in front of the computer screen.

Got to study really hard if I want to go to my desired school. But then again, its just impossible to sacrifice my play time for just studying and studying. I think I must come up with a time-table and it takes a whole lot of discipline to follow it. Must keep my stress level as low as possible.

Enough about me. Lets talk a little about the stuffs around me.

School - Not too bad. At least I am happy with where I am. I'm not those big-shot characters but just a low profile someone. I enjoyed being low-profile in the whole school. My classmates are fun people which I brand as crazy, however, I go crazy with them too. No one in particular that I hate. Well, just one that I dislike.

Family - Just like this. Went to Pastamania with my sister again. Lol...

Friends - Haha...My friends are a fun batch of people. But something just happened between two of my friends. Guess they don't like each other much.

That's all for today! Cya!

PS: Serena, Be strong!!!

Tuesday, March 01, 2005

The 'O' Levels result was released at 2 .p.m. just now. I was pretty surprised that Dunman scored really well this year. 13 students got 8As, 20+ got 7As, 36 got 6As and 93 got 5As. How good is this huh? The teachers were at all smiles, seemingly satisfied with the result. The top scholar of our school is a girl, scoring 8A1s.

Its my time to take the O'Levels this year and next year this time, I hope I can be celebrating over my results and not whimpering. I'm so MOTIVATED now! *see fires in eyes*

Today the whole class got scolded by the Chinese teacher(again). Well, its all about having the wrong work attitude for a crucial year like this. But again, how did she know we don't care about Chinese? Out of 23 chinese pupils in the class, only 2 did the assignment. I wasn't even informed that we need to do the worksheet.

I slept at 2.30 am yesterday, doing my English comprehension. This sucks manz... And noe, its time for my growing pile of homework.( -_-") -> (O_O!!!)